What do you do when both of the people you live with are mad at you at the same time? What do you do when you didn't even mean to make one mad but you did? What do you do when your Mom has passed away, your hubby is mad at you and so is your daughter that lives with you? Who do you talk to, or cry to? I called my oldest daughter that lives in Guam. Still tough to take. Do you ever feel as though you have no one to talk to? Because I do. It doesn't happen often, this feeling sorry for myself stuff, but it has happened tonight.
So, here I am at 10:40 pm still crying. Lately I have felt pulled in about 10 different directions. Daddy seems to need me more and more. Robbie is so sick and needs my help too. I have (or try to) have a life here in Georgia, with responsibilities and church obligations as well. Now, Katlyn has gotten married and I know that part of my life is about to change yet again. I don't feel as though I've had enough time with her. I guess her getting married has affected me more than I thought. I will have her for another month while Chris is in California, and then I don't know from there. She is supposed to be looking for an apartment. I have tried to help her and here again, my help no longer seems welcome. She is getting very frustrated with me over the littlest things. One minute she acts like she doesn't need my help and the next she is acting like a 2 year old and not wanting to pay her bills or live up to her responsibilities.
Oh well I guess she'll always need me. I still need my Mama even though I don't have her to talk to anymore, at least not in person. I think that's part of why I am still so upset tonight, because normally I would have been able to call Mama and talk it all out with her. I guess at this point I have to wait to be asked. Boy, is that hard to do again. Sometimes me, being me, lol, I have a hard time doing that.
Well, an unexpected source of comfort has come. Allison sent me a message and we chatted a bit. Nice to hear from another source, someone else a little frustrated from being under appreciated.
Ok, I'm done.
